Cara Delevingne is having a good year. She’s happy and in love with her girlfriend, actress Ashley Benson, and apparently has a good set of friends by her side. Delevingne recently opened up to Elle U.K. for her cover story about how getting to this place wasn’t always easy.

“Honestly, I had low expectations for friends in this industry because: a) I didn’t think people would want to be my friend, and b) I didn’t know if making friends through this process would be fickle or seem not real,” she admitted. “So I was pleasantly surprised! Jourdan and Karlie [Kloss] were friends early on. I didn’t meet Kendall until I had been modeling for a bit. We had done a few shows together and didn’t say a word to each other. Eventually, we started talking and I was like, ‘Oh, you’re alright. We should hang out after this.’ She was like, ‘Alright, cool.’ It was very easy. I found that you automatically know if someone is trying to make an effort that isn’t real, and when a friendship seems contrived.”

While Delevingne has slowly opened up and gone public with her relationship with Benson, she’s coming around to speaking out about it. She explained why she made an effort early on to keep this relationship private.

“...It’s sacred. I get why people care so much, and I don’t want to be so secretive that people think I’m ashamed of anything. But I’ve never been in a relationship where things are so public, or where I posted pictures of someone else. This seemed different,” she explained. “We had gotten to the point where we had kept it a secret, or at least not wanted attention, and now I feel like I’m not going to not be proud. Which isn’t the same thing as wanting to pose on a red carpet together, either. People make their own assumptions and that’s what worried me. Because if it is something that is so good, you don’t ever want anyone to ever change it, even though people shouldn’t have that power.”

She may have concerns, but rest assured she’s in a good place right now with her relationship.

“I’m just better when I’m in love. That doesn’t have to mean with someone. It can also mean with myself,” she said. “It just feels incredible when you’re not alone, when you’re facing the world with someone else.”